asian.

so, as you know, im an asian. well. to be specific, cause theres people out there who really care about differentiating about chinese and indian and taiwanese and whatevers out there... anyways, im chinese. well, ABC to be certain. i mean people basically say im sorta kinda whitewashed, like this one latino girl i know thought i was half white and this other asian girl who sings really well was like "you kinda have a white vibe"... anyways. the thing im frustrated about is how i cant make an asian accent with my english (or you might say.... engrish). well it kinda sucks. i mean, i cant speak for myself about how my voice sounds and all, but i swear i start getting into this really bad indian accent whenever i try. well. its kinda bad, being that im asian and all and cant do that.

and like, i hate how people are so like, bleh, against me not being "asian" enough. like every time i go to family dinners, my one uncle whose all about being chinese and family is always saying to me "gee, are you even part of the family?" and my cousins are like "who, you look nothing like us" (btdubs, im like full asian... excuse me, chinese... like my mom and dad are both chinese) and then my other cousin is like "you are so totally whitewashed" and then they laugh at me cause i dont speak chinese. i mean, i can understand what everyone is saying, but when it comes back to answering their questions and what not, i just say it in english cause my chinese just sucks so much...

did i tell you i lived in hong kong for 3 years? yes i did. well, i guess thats why its kinda bad i dont speak chinese well.... and no, im not a FOB and i wasnt born there. thats another frustrating thing while im at it. thats why i normally dont talk about it. cause then when i say "ooh! i lived in hong kong for a year" people start thinking im a FOB and what not. fyi, fob means "fresh off the boat" like just arrived from china and what not. NO im not one of em...

while im on the subject of FOBs. i cant stand FOBs in America. i mean, that whole neon shiny supertight clothes and the oversized glasses and the funky hair colors and styles totally works in asia, but just not in America. i mean here, id have to say normal clothing is kinda like jeans and a tee and if you wanna go the extra mile, a shirt. but no, these asians gotta wear these funky clothes. i love it more when the tees have those pointless sayings on it. like someone i know wears a tee that has a bunch of words, and if you dont pay attention i swear it seems like it says like something like "BOOB". well, ill have to be angrier than how i am now if i wanna go ranting about FOB fashion.

gosh! fashion. so many things i can say about how people dress.